Fa’iq Zakka Bolous found himself in a dilemma, after eleven years as a monk everybody is really angry with him. The monastery summoned him after he published his diary and asked him to stop and not to turn it into a book, but he refused. Lots of letters came in cursing, insulting and denouncing him. However, others were saying that what he said was small compared to what was really happening, and that it could be a good starting point towards reforming life in the monastery. Still Fa’iq says that what happened can only be seen as a personal experience. Sout al-Umma also referred to Father Dr. John Watson’s response in the RNSAW [week 05A, art. 26].